April 30th 2010
Kai Hates “The Sky”
Kai’s teacher pulled me aside this morning because she’s concerned that Kai has been very sad at school. I’ve noticed it somewhat too, but it seems that the topic comes up more often at school; I guess because the other kids talk about their moms and their moms come to pick them during earlier parts of the day.
He still asks for mommy almost every day after a whole year. You’d think he would have given up by now, but he’s got his mom’s determination. Lately he’s been trying to think of ways that Mommy can come back to Earth. The other night he was up late in bed talking for a while, so I finally went into his room and asked him who he was talking to. He said he was talking to Mommy and to God. He asked God to make a cloud with a slide on it so Mommy could slide down to Earth to see him. He said that Mommy then told him that she was already an angel and that she couldn’t slide down the slide, but that she might be able to use her angel wings to fly down to Earth to visit him in the summer! Either he’s got an amazing imagination for an “almost 4 year old”, or she really did tell him that…
Apparently Kai’s teacher is feeling acutely aware of the fact that Mother’s Day is coming because their curriculum will center around Mother’s Day. She said she was hurt the other day because he mentioned he “hated the sky”. She asked him why, and he said he hates Heaven too because his Mommy was stuck up there.
It crushes me to know that he is hurting, but I don’t know what more I can do for him. I’m not in any better place myself to help…
P.S. Sorry for another downer post…

