SolandMonica.com

Today was the first radiation treatment.  I was ok until about 30 minutes before the appointment.  I started freaking out.  I was planning on going by myself (it only takes about 5 minutes once you’re in there), but I called Sol and he met me there. I was so glad that he did.  I guess anytime you start something new, it’s scary.  I started questioning whether or not I should go through with the radiation.  I told myself that no matter how scary it may seem, it’s the right thing to do because Kai needs his mommy and Sol needs his wife.  So to give me courage, I put on my monkey socks, because I need to be there for my monkey!  Sounds silly, but it helped.

I was meeting Sol there and arrived before him.  I sat in my car with my head resting on the steering wheel and prayed with tears streaming down my face.  After that, I had peace, and I was ready!  I got out of my car and waited for Sol to get there.

When he arrived, we walked hand in hand toward the door.  He gave me a great big hug and tender kiss.  We walked in, I changed into my “beautiful ball gown”, and then we waited for the tech to take us back.  Sol was able to come with me until they began the actually radiation.  He saw me laying on the table, while they lined up the lasers to my tatoos.  I’m sure it wasn’t easy for him to see, but he was brave for me – giving me a kiss before leaving the room with the techs.  It didn’t take long, and I felt nothing.

They said that the first week will be the easiest.  I will feel tired, but the skin stuff doesn’t happen right away.  Although I can’t see any effects, I still have to start today applying the lotion and powder 2-3 times a day.

Anyway, I will be braver tomorrow . . . I think!  I’ll have to choose my socks tonight as my appointment is at 6:45 tomorrow morning.   🙂   I’ll be having one more treatment then I originally thought, so now my end date is May 23rd.  (sorry sis).

Tonight I also talked to Linda, an angiosarcoma of the breast survivor.  She is nine years out of treatment.  She told me that if it hasn’t come back in two years, then it’s not going to come back.  (I also remember the doctor saying the same thing.)  So May 23rd, 2010 is my celebration day.  I know I’ll still be wondering with each pain if it is back, but that’s just normal.  It was really encouraging to talk to her.  She made sure to make herself available to me through this whole process by phone or email whenever I need it.  Her treatment was similar to what I already received although it was in a different order.  She told me that the worst of my treatment was over and that radiation was nothing compared to what I’ve already been through.  I liked hearing that.  🙂

Today was the beginning of the end of treatment.

Monica

3 Comments »