May 10th 2009 06:05 pm

Mother’s Day

I felt like I had starting gaining my composure over the last few days since Monica was discharged from the hospital.  Between being a host and trying to take care of Monica, I’ve been able to occupy my mind enough to cope, but today makes me sad.  We really wanted to make Mother’s Day special, but her pain has increased to a point where she is almost totally immobile.  She is suffering and it breaks my heart.  Going to Santa Monica tomorrow for her first treatment is going to be a challenge. 

We’re going to start looking into home hospice care for her tomorrow as well.  Hopefully a hospital bed will make it easier for her to sit up and lay down.  We’re also going to ask for oxygen like she had in the hospital.  Her breathing is very shallow and she feels like she isn’t getting a decent breath.

For everyone celebrating Mother’s Day today, I encourage you to give your mom an extra hug or kiss and hold on tight.


4 Responses to “Mother’s Day”

  1. MaryAnn on 10 May 2009 at 7:48 pm #

    Your courage leaves us speechless. We continue to pray for Monica, You and Kai.

    Kelly and MaryAnn

  2. sheribaker on 10 May 2009 at 8:38 pm #

    I am so sorry that you are having to go through this. I can’t even fathom how difficult this must be for all three of you, not to mention the family and friends who are near to you now. I truly wish there was something more tangible that we could do – some way to ease the pain in any sense. Please know that you can ask us for anything and we will do it. My heart breaks for you all. You are on my heart and mind daily and I will keep praying, but if there is anything else, please ask. We love you guys.

  3. Blou on 10 May 2009 at 9:46 pm #

    Sol – I haven’t walked your path but I have been the primary caretaker for my father who I lost to cancer, have lost my MIL to cancer, am the primary caretaker for my mother and have pretty much lost my oldest son. So although I haven’t walked your path, I’m on a first name basis with pain and heartache. I suspect you are beyond hurting right now. Please know that there are others in this world who know something of the incredible pain that you feel right now for Monica, for Kai, for yourself. We can’t take the pain away, but know we are here.

    Praying and caring,

  4. frankloaiza on 11 May 2009 at 7:45 am #

    Sol, All I can say is that I am thinking and praying for you both. My heart is in agony for you guys.

    Love, Frank Loaiza

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