January 30th 2009 09:54 pm
I really need your prayer. I have been feeling really down the past few days as I fight a cough that deprives me (and Sol) of sleep. I have not had any energy, and it is really starting to bring me down. I have been fighting one thing or another – maybe not even related to my cancer – everyday for the past three weeks. I have seen God take away pain in miraculous ways but struggle as the battle to just feel better continues on a daily basis! I am not eating much – Kai eats more than me these days. I just don’t have an appetite, and so I don’t have any energy. I don’t have the strength to pick up Kai or the energy to play with him and that breaks my heart! I want to be a great mom to him, but find myself falling short (of my own expectations) as all I want to do is curl up in bed. He is so great and cuddles with me. Sol always asks me, “You ok, Love?” Kai picked up on it and the other day put his hand on my knee and asked, “You ok, Love?” It was so sweet. The other really sweet thing he did was go to the store with Sol to get me some Tylenol. When they got home, he ran through the door so excited. He couldn’t even spit out the words…”Mom, Mom. I found you some medicine it’s gonna make you all better.” He was all smiles! I want to be all better so badly, if for nothing else, for that precious little child! Sol, as you all know, is just an amazing blessing in my life. He has really been taking care of me these past few weeks and doing everything to take care of Kai. I’m glad he feels good taking care of me, but I feel so guilty – I know I shouldn’t, but I do.
Anyway, I just wanted to share with you the tough time I am finding myself in right now and ask for your prayers. I just want all this other stuff to be over and have the energy to fight this beast. Thank you for continuing to pray for me and encourage me as I walk the road ahead.
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