June 4th 2009 09:45 pm

The Training Wheels Come Off

My mom is a trooper.  She was here for over a month.  She got here as Monica took a turn for the worse and stayed ever since.  Today she had to go back though; so the training wheels come off and Kai and I have to find our own way.  In some ways it’s a good thing, and in others it is … not so good.  My mom was great with Kai and made my life so much more manageable as I have been trying to navigate the waters of confusion.  She also did a lot of cleaning and straightening up.  Things already feel overwhelming at times, and I am at least a little bit nervous about household things piling up.  On the other hand, I’m a bit anxious to get rid of at least a little uncertainty in life right now, so I think having some kind of routine would be good for me as much as it would be for Kai. 

In the meantime I just keep telling myself, “One day at a time”.

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6 Responses to “The Training Wheels Come Off”

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  2. wendideetz on 04 Jun 2009 at 10:01 pm #

    it’s never easy learning new things, especially when the emotional stakes are so high. you may skin your knees a few times, but if i know anything about you it’s that you are deeply intelligent, a quick study, a faithful, trusting student of god & life. you have all the skills you need to get through this. and i’m sure i’m not alone when i say i’m here for the things i can do whenever, however i can help. xo

  3. CherylGregSimoneMarcus on 05 Jun 2009 at 10:59 am #

    This day had to some eventually… you and Kai are a team now and I can’t imagine it is going to be easy but you are right… One day at a Time. Don’t forget that it will be okay to ask others for help if you become really overwhelmed. Just do what you are able to and spend the time with the Little Man.

    Praying for you everyday, my Brother!

    Love,
    Cheryl

  4. MaryAnn on 06 Jun 2009 at 5:52 pm #

    Sol,

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts with everyone so we can pray for you in specific areas, even things that may seem small to others; cooking, getting Kai ready for the day, doing housework, with this website we can pray for specific things for you two as the days move forward. We love you both and you are are part of our everyday prayers. Keep moving forward and taking time to cry, scream, or just hold Kai and let the laundry wait, if you need to.

    Love,
    Kelly and MaryAnn

  5. RenaeHerbTolbert on 08 Jun 2009 at 8:35 am #

    Hey Sol and Kai, I know we’ve never met, but I wanted you to know that I continue to hold you and Kai up in prayer many times throughout my days. You are never far from my foremost thoughts. I appreciate your updates so very much, as MaryAnne said, it helps us to know how to pray specifically for you both. I have no idea how hard this is for you during this time, but I pray God will sustain you and give you peace that transcends all understanding.
    In His love,
    Renae

  6. brenda on 08 Jun 2009 at 10:34 am #

    Hi there. I’ve never met you, but I came across your blog on a google search of angiosarcoma. My husband lost his battle with Angiosarcoma of the esophagus on October 28, 2008 after just 4 months. I’m in Lancaster, Pennsylvania-he was just 36. I am sorry for your loss. The one day at a time phrase is one I use often. Sometimes, I even just say it’s one hour at a time because that’s as far as I can think ahead. As disease is a difficult journey, widowhood is more so. My thoughts are with you.

    Brenda B http://www.theboitsons.info

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